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[Video- Filtered from Frisk] Birthday Plans

Greetings! This is Toriel.

So, I have been keeping an eye on the calendar, and I believe that Frisk's birthday is later this month! The date is, ah... rather vivid, in my memory.

As I am sure anyone that was there will remember, I. Somewhat put a damper on their party, last time. It has been something which I regretted deeply, and so I was thinking that perhaps we could throw them another party? One that will not have any unfortunate interruptions.

This may be a bit early for this, really, but I wish to be certain that everyone is given ample time to prepare, and come up with ideas!

What do you think?

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[Sorry, Toriel. Your girlfriend has lethal force and has used it a lot. But she doesn't mention it in that context, so Shepard doesn't comment.]

What happened? You don't-- you don't have to tell me, but it sounds like you wanna talk.

It is just... difficult to get into.

It happened during an event where all our dreams were... uncomfortably realistic. And rather uncomfortable in general.

[She takes a deep breath, before continuing- she's tried as hard as she can, to avoid thinking about this.]

I was forced to relive my death, more vividly than I have since I died. It felt... real. And in that situation, with... that version of Frisk, in front of me, with the knowledge that they would kill my people... I...

I was too injured to fight, back, so I... It... I could not manage my magic well enough to shoot flames, they just sparked around me, so I....

I set myself aflame, instead. And just... held them close as I burned away, to try and stop them.

[Hah. Oh yeah. That event. That was one of 'em for the books, now wasn't it?

She wishes she could reach out and touch her now, hold Toriel in her arms for just a little bit. Instead, she grips the communicator harder, tries to hold down the waves of feeling.]

Toriel, that's... that's not injuring someone else. That's injuring you.

[She can't hold herself accountable for that. Shouldn't.]

That's Wonderland, forcing you into a corner, making you do things you wouldn't. Don't blame yourself. Please.

No, that- that is not all. That was just the dream. But then, when I woke up, they- they were right there! Frisk was there, right after they killed me, again!

[The background around Toriel starts to shift, as she begins pacing anxiously, throwing her other arm up in the air.]

That is- what are the chances of that, really? Ha, I mean, that I would die, and show up here right on their birthday, right outside the room they are having it- and then during this event, the one dream I have where I am forced to relive that in an even more horrifying way, where it felt so vivid and real? Ha, of course, who else would be there right when I got up? And of course, I reacted the same way I did the first time, only I did not miss this time and had to heal them.

Wonderland clearly has quite the sick sense of humor, does it not?

[And so does Toriel, by the way she's laughing about it. Trying to make it a joke, as if it's something okay.]

That's still Wonderland messing with you, Toriel. You were scared.

[It's obviously weighing heavily on her, and Shepard understands why, but-- there's plenty of reasons. Things you couldn't avoid.]

You didn't mean to. This place is fucking with you.

[That last bit comes out a little angrier than she intended.]

You wouldn't have done it if you'd known it was real. That's what's important.

Well, I do not enjoy being fucked with.

[She really, really doesn't- if this is just going to keep happening, over and over, Wonderland finding ways to eat away at her mental health and causing her to keep lashing out and hurting people who don't deserve it...

She lets out a long, deep sigh- all the manic energy she'd built up seeming to seep out of her body along with it. Her posture slouches, and she looks a lot more tired now.]

I suppose that all I can do is keep trying to do better, and try to keep this place from getting the better of me in the future.

Thank you for listening, Jane. I hope that I did not bring you down, too much.

Of course. Toriel, I'm always here to talk if you need to.

[And she wants to be around to stop it from getting the better of her, too. That's always her go-to as it stands-- put herself directly in the line of fire between her and those she loves.]

I asked, didn't I?

Well... yes. I am just very used to keeping these kinds of things to myself, is all.

It is nice, to have someone to be able to trust and confide in.

[She smiles again- still feels kinda tired, but. A bit more of a happy tired.]

...Would you like to do something later, Jane? Watch a movie and cuddle maybe?

I understand. It's hard to... talk about that sort of thing.

[Considering Toriel had to drag hers out of her during a mental breakdown last month. It all comes full circle.]

That sounds great, actually. You wanna use one of our rooms or a tearoom? I can get popcorn.

Your room, perhaps? I think that the privacy afforded there may be preferable, as I have been told that I can be embarrassingly affectionate.

Which is not something I am going to apologize for! So I hope you are prepared for a lot of nuzzling and whispered "I love you"s, Janey!

Speaking of- I really do love you a great deal. It is hard to talk about, but it is made easier, knowing how much you care, and how much I can trust you.

[God, this is so much. Her heart feels full and it almost hurts, but she feels like if she were going to go out this way, it wouldn't be a bad way to go.]

Man, I gotta find a good nickname for you if you don't want me to use Tori. You've really got the upper hand with this Janey thing.

[It's getting easier to say the next bit, though. Toriel's making it easier every day.]

I love you too. I... It really means a lot to me to have you be here at my side. To have someone to talk to, and who understands me.

Well, I am glad to hear you are fond of that name! I always feel a bit childish when I use it, like a lovestruck little girl. Which I suppose is understandable, given its origins!

Whenever I use it, it puts me right back into that mindset, of thinking that you are the strongest, bravest, prettiest, toughest woman that I have ever seen- and then I feel this little rush of giddy energy when I remember that you are actually my girlfriend now!

If 'Tori' makes you feel at all like that, then you are more than welcome to use it, Janey.

[Holy shit Toriel is actually going to kill her with this, it's just so much affection, how does one even handle this level of it. Holy fuck.]

I've... never been good, with nicknames-- I mean, using them, but... it feels nice. Informal. I don't get to do that very often.

[It's not the same... outpouring of kindness, and love, but it is to her. Even a crack in the door of her caring, of getting to express that, is a point in Toriel's favor.]

But it's cute on you, Tori. Like a bow on top of my favorite present.

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