Of course it bothers me. It's just -- I want to understand that too, okay? I don't even know what to think right now.
[Admittedly, Lapis herself is also dully surprised that she's not more worked up about it. Or about the encounter with her Mirror in general. M'Lapis was the one who rejected any kind of amicable understanding, right when Lapis was really trying to deal with things reasonably; M'Lapis hates her. Doesn't that just reinforce every concern about Mirrors? As people who are intrinsically the enemy, hostile and hateful and manipulative?
The thing is, her Mirror, the thing she didn't allow herself to even think about for so long, has represented a far more deep, creeping, existential fear. And seeing her in the hard-light flesh, she was unpleasant and uncooperative, but really just... petty. A person. Not necessarily a person Lapis wants to deal with, but in its own way, that's a relief, right when she could resolve to deal with things reasonably. She'd like some more of that understanding as well.]
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[Admittedly, Lapis herself is also dully surprised that she's not more worked up about it. Or about the encounter with her Mirror in general. M'Lapis was the one who rejected any kind of amicable understanding, right when Lapis was really trying to deal with things reasonably; M'Lapis hates her. Doesn't that just reinforce every concern about Mirrors? As people who are intrinsically the enemy, hostile and hateful and manipulative?
The thing is, her Mirror, the thing she didn't allow herself to even think about for so long, has represented a far more deep, creeping, existential fear. And seeing her in the hard-light flesh, she was unpleasant and uncooperative, but really just... petty. A person. Not necessarily a person Lapis wants to deal with, but in its own way, that's a relief, right when she could resolve to deal with things reasonably. She'd like some more of that understanding as well.]