[She lets out a sharp breath, her eyes narrow in disbelief as she shakes her head again, small movements from side to side.]

Do you really think I'd... do that again? After all the trouble I caused? All the people who... who fucking died?

[And there's the water in her eyes again, that she tries to blink away. She should have seen this coming- even with Chloe. Once in a while she caught her best friend's worried expression, wondering how many times Max had rewound to replay one of their conversations and make it come out just the way she wanted to. Even when Max hadn't been rewinding at all, that doubt and tiny hurt were always there.]

Come on, Alex. I'm not that dumb.