( it's easy to point out, despite the fact that he'd just said - or hadn't, really - that he thought tim had wanted to leave him there, tied up and by himself. but an acceptance is settling over him as they talk, a realisation. he pushes himself up, lips thinning.
it's easy for each of them to carry the blame, but in the end, jay's the one that started all of this up again. it's like tim said, back in the parking lot - he was doing fine, until jay thought it was a good idea to track him down and drag him back into it all, even if he didn't know exactly what it was he would be dragging him into. if he'd just left the tapes alone, hadn't bothered with alex, maybe everyone would be okay.
he should have let alex burn the tapes. he wanted to get rid of them for a reason - jay shouldn't have been so stubborn.
but it's easier to linger on what if's than it is to place blame, though jay likes to linger on them too much. )
I got shot because I was being an idiot and didn't wait for you. ( if he had waited, maybe it would have been tim— and more what ifs. ) I didn't let you talk, I just waved a knife at you like a maniac. That hooded guy gave me a knife to escape, and I didn't stop to think. I just went to find Alex. That's my fault. You didn't deserve it - any of this. Not me dragging you back in, or how it all ended — none of it.
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( it's easy to point out, despite the fact that he'd just said - or hadn't, really - that he thought tim had wanted to leave him there, tied up and by himself. but an acceptance is settling over him as they talk, a realisation. he pushes himself up, lips thinning.
it's easy for each of them to carry the blame, but in the end, jay's the one that started all of this up again. it's like tim said, back in the parking lot - he was doing fine, until jay thought it was a good idea to track him down and drag him back into it all, even if he didn't know exactly what it was he would be dragging him into. if he'd just left the tapes alone, hadn't bothered with alex, maybe everyone would be okay.
he should have let alex burn the tapes. he wanted to get rid of them for a reason - jay shouldn't have been so stubborn.
but it's easier to linger on what if's than it is to place blame, though jay likes to linger on them too much. )
I got shot because I was being an idiot and didn't wait for you. ( if he had waited, maybe it would have been tim— and more what ifs. ) I didn't let you talk, I just waved a knife at you like a maniac. That hooded guy gave me a knife to escape, and I didn't stop to think. I just went to find Alex. That's my fault. You didn't deserve it - any of this. Not me dragging you back in, or how it all ended — none of it.