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[Souji's been feeling reflective lately, thinking over some things. It's elicited a question that he himself isn't sure he can answer. He wants to find out if others can, so, after some deliberation about whether or not it's a good idea, he takes to the network to ask.]

If you were able to change something in your life at home, what would it be?

[He's not sure he'll even get any answers. It's kind of a personal question. But he's hoping that some people will respond, if only to help him think through things himself.]

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Yeah, that gets to that whole butterfly flapping its wings starting a hurricane stuff. It's so tiny it seems random.

Fuck, I mean, if you go that route, if I smiled at the barista that day, maybe my family'd still be alive.

You can't live thinking like that. At least, I can't.

No, you can't. You'd second guess every tiny thing you do.

But what if it were bigger? If you could put your finger on a particular moment and know that if you'd done something else, it would have turned out differently?

....then I'd have to say no. Nothing I could do differently would save my family.

Save a bunch of other people, though. [He's not quite sure he cares about that, but he probably should.]

You wouldn't want to save people?

[Maybe he's misunderstanding.]

Not like that. If you have to pick one out of all the people you killed, how the hell do you pick just one? How do you decide, yeah, that asshole deserves to stay dead, but this one, he gets a second chance?

Best to just decide you're not gonna play god anymore.

That would include not killing again, too.

You notice how many people I've killed since I got here?

Not counting goddam rainbow vomiting zombies or shit like that.

[He hadn't exactly been keeping tabs.]

That's good to hear from anyone.

Look, I don't kill people who don't deserve it.

[Anymore. He's done some stuff, but that was, yeah, then.]

I'm glad for that at least. But what does it mean to "deserve it"?

They kill other people. [Whoops, better clarify that. ]

Innocent people. Kids. Families. People who just want to live their lives.

[He nods, although he can't be seen.]

I can understand that. I'm not sure I agree with it, but I can understand.

Trust me, no one else wants to step up where I'm from, to take the bastards down. Either they're afraid, or inept.

I ain't either.

Is killing them necessary at all?

[There isn't really any judgment in his voice as he asks.]

Yes.

[There's no judgment in Souji's voice because Frank has hoarded it all. ]

Why?

[You have to give him more than that, Frank.]

Because some people? Nothing stops 'em. You can put 'em in jail, and they'll be shotcallers from the inside. You can fine them or arrest them, and they'll pay the fine and get out of jail and go right back to their old shit. Cops can't do shit. Social workers can't do shit.

Nothing stops them, until I stop them.

[That sounds a little arrogant to Souji, but Frank is kind of loud and Souji doesn't want that to happen, so he isn't going to say anything.]

I think those people are probably in the minority.

[It's not arrogance. At least, it's not arrogance that's not backed up with ability.]

Minority isn't good enough. They were ruining where I lived. They were killing innocent people. Women. Kids. Old fucking ladies.

Who were they?

[Sounds worse than anything he's encountered. He doesn't envy that.]

Bad people. Drug traffickers. Hit men. Traitors.

Traitors?

[Traitors to who?]

To their country.

To their own goddam men.

[What could be worse than a man like Schoonover, fucking over his own men, for what? Money. Drug money. ]

[He nods, although he can't be seen.]

I think I can understand all of this.

[He still doesn't agree. But he also thinks he might be naive.]

Yeah? You gonna explain to me now why you get to weigh on why I do shit in the first place?

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