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[Souji's been feeling reflective lately, thinking over some things. It's elicited a question that he himself isn't sure he can answer. He wants to find out if others can, so, after some deliberation about whether or not it's a good idea, he takes to the network to ask.]

If you were able to change something in your life at home, what would it be?

[He's not sure he'll even get any answers. It's kind of a personal question. But he's hoping that some people will respond, if only to help him think through things himself.]

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Doesn't really matter, does it? You can't make people give a shit about you.

[And Jason has tried, so.]

I guess not.

[A beat while he considers that in application to his own experience.]

But is it really pointless to try?

Maybe not - if you're the type to enjoy pain. Personally, I'd rather take a crowbar to the ribs a few dozen times, but to each his own.

I wonder if that means there's something worse in your past than in mine.

[Of course, it's all relative. He gets that. But for some people, there must be a reason why it's harder than for others.]

Unless your past involved being murdered, yeah, you're probably right.

It didn't. I'm sorry about that.

[About him being murdered, not about not being murdered himself.]

It's fine. [Spoilers: it was not, in fact, fine.] Didn't stick anyway.

That doesn't make it any better.

[He has, in fact, been murdered, but it doesn't really "count" to him, since it happened in Wonderland and not at home. It didn't have a hugely formative role in his life. Still, no fun.]

Nothing makes getting murdered any better. Not even coming back from it.

But you're alive again? At home, I mean.

[He got up on the network and yelled about it plenty when he was teen-ified, so there's really no point in denying it.]

Yeah. It's not real common like it is here, but it happens sometimes.

It seems like that would be kind of a relief, though.

[He huffs quietly, not really a laugh.]

You’d think so, but believe me, it’s not.

Can you tell me why?

[Maybe it's something that can't be explained.]

[Jason definitely can explain, but the question is whether he wants to. It's a weird feeling, being this open and honest with a complete stranger, but at the end of a long pause, he opts to go ahead with the explanation.]

OK ... imagine this: you're sixteen, and you end up dead - killed, because you made a dumb mistake, and really, that's probably what's been waiting for you all along, no surprise there. But then, you get brought back, and it turns out that the people you loved, the people who were the most important to you, they didn't care that you were killed. And the lunatic who killed you is still running around, ruining lives like he always does.

[He took me away from you, and it apparently meant so little to Bruce that he did nothing to stop the Joker from repeating his actions.]

That sound like anything that would be a comfort to you?

No, I can understand why it wouldn't be.

[Somehow, he can imagine it, even if it's quite far from his own experience with the people he loves himself.

He gives that a few seconds, because it was a pretty personal confession and he wants to give it the weight it deserves, before shifting gears a bit, this time in hope of alleviating some of that weight.]

If being brought back isn't normal, how did it happen?

There's these things called Lazarus Pits ... secret pools of water, a real fountain of youth-type deal. One guy's been living for centuries 'cause he takes an occasional dip when he starts feeling old and rusty. I got dropped into one of 'em, and ... well, the name says it all.

Yeah, it does. Who was it that dropped you in?

[He's hoping it was someone who cares about the guy, but the way Jason made it sound, there aren't many of those people around.]

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