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[titanocidal]

[It's hard to tell if Eren turned his device on by accident or on purpose. He seems pretty zoned out, not even looking at the camera.]

I hit my commanding officer off a motorized bike with a soccer ball.

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[titanocidal]

Teg- [Er.]

Lady Hellsing!

[LONG AWKWARD PAUSE WITH SOME LONG AWKWARD STARING.]

[humanities_greatest]

[Teg. Yeah. That's an awkward thing to say but she doesn't look mad. She looks upset.]

It wasn't your fault. It wasn't any of our faults.

[titanocidal]

It still happened. [It's hard to see her the same way as before. Something about her definitely felt softer to him, and it's making him feel a little more inclined to talk openly with her.]

All of it did.

[humanities_greatest]

Just because it happened, it doesn't necessarily make it your given reality. We were all manipulated, deceived to believe something that wasn't real.

[titanocidal]

But...

[Didn't you have fun hanging out together? Wasn't that real, at the time?]

You're right. The situations are different, and our actions were based off of those situations. It would probably be easiest to think of it like a dream.

Just another weird dream.

[humanities_greatest]

Right. A strange vivid dream.

[She did have fun, Eren. She's going to miss you and being close like that.]

[titanocidal]

[Alas. He'll always remember your favorite flavor of ice cream, Tegs...]

But still, if you ever need someone to talk to...

[humanities_greatest]

[She heaves a sigh.]

I'm not surprised this world portrayed you as a caring individual. Something tells me they didn't get you wrong.

[titanocidal]

[The laugh he lets out is barely a breath. If you listen hard enough, it almost sounds bitter.]

I don't consider myself to be one, but I'll take the compliment.

[humanities_greatest]

What do you consider yourself, then?

[titanocidal]

[When put on the spot, what is he supposed to say to that?]

Human, hopefully.

[He's never put much thought into the question before, beyond that.]

It's only human to want to be there for the people you know.

[humanities_greatest]

[What a curious response.]

Have you ever considered yourself inhuman, Eren?

[What the hell are you hiding.]

[titanocidal]

[Fuck. He'd grown so comfortable around her. It had just slipped out.

For a moment he just sits there, looking at the screen of the device guiltily.

From the expression alone, the answer is pretty clear.]

[humanities_greatest]

[Well, then. She's silent for a moment.]

I am no one to judge whatever sins have stained your hands red. I have sent more souls to a worse fate than hell than I can count. What have you done, Eren?

[titanocidal]

[Eren. Eren, don't. It's a bad idea. Don't tell her. Just don't.]

...I'm still not used to these talk devices. [He shifts.]

If I tell you something over it, would it stay private?

[humanities_greatest]

Probably not. I can come to you if you so wish.

[titanocidal]

[A nod.]

I'll see you soon then.

[humanities_greatest]

Where am I meeting you? You didn't tell me where to go.

[titanocidal]

Ah- Right. My head isn't on right. I'm a little nervous.

[This is kind of a big deal for him.]

I'm in my room now....

[humanities_greatest]

I will be there in a bit.

[And she isn't lying. She cuts off the feed and in a few minutes she's knocking on his door.]

[titanocidal]

[Eren's room looks a lot like his childhood home. No- perhaps it was better to say that it feels like it. Same flooring, same walls, different setup. The modern niceties that Wonderland provided are scattered about the room in ways that seem slightly jarring. By the nightstand, Connie Crab's makeshift crab hut is placed.

Eren opens the door, looking around to make sure Integra is the only one in the hall before letting her in.]

Lady Hellsing. [He nods, unsure of how to start things off. Should he just jump into it, or...?]

[humanities_greatest]

[She could sense how nervous he was and without any hesitation, she pulled a chair.]

You might as well come out with it. There no point hiding things from me.

[titanocidal]

[Eren doesn't move to sit down. Once the door is closed, he leans his back against the door frame, staying a good distance away from Integra.]

I'm only telling you this because I trust you.

And because it's probably going to come out eventually anyway.... [What with Annie here, and all. He'd also seen the uh. "Dean post" that went up on the network a while ago. He knows what sort of people reside here.]

You also don't seem like the type who would instantly hate me, if I told you how messed up I really am. I'm not normal, at all.

[humanities_greatest]

[Yeah, she's sitting on the edge of the chair now watching him.]

Go on. [What the hell did Levi not tell her...]

[titanocidal]

Captain Levi told you all about Titans, right? They're monsters. Murderous monsters who eat people. I don't think there's anyone around who hates them more than I do. When I was younger, they broke through the walls of Shinganshina. My mom, she-

[He cuts off there. Telling her about his history and why he hated the titans so much was only a way of stalling, wasn't it? It wasn't time for that.

No guts, no glory, Eren. Here we go:]

I can turn into one of them.