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[ The last time she was this preoccupied with death, it was because she was very much alive and didn't want to be. Amy had just died, and from her perspective, there was nothing else to live for. She wanted to die peacefully at the CDC. And yet, with everything that had happened since that moment, she knows it was worth it to have held on.

But now, she's considering her own death again; not because she's contemplating harming herself, but because her death is looming and unavoidable whenever she returns home. The reality of that has always been in the back of her mind since first arriving in Wonderland, and she tries not to think about it much, but maybe talking it through isn't such a bad thing. ]

I know there are others here who are dead where they come from. Or...will be dead, whenever they go back.

[ That's a cheerful way to start a broadcast, right? ]

I just got here, a little while ago. Whenever I go back, I won't have long.

[ Dead or nearly dead - what a great club to be in, right? ]

Do you think about it much here? Or do you try to make this place home? How do you deal with it?

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Ain't any good way to deal with it. Though I think some just make the most of this place. Make it home, as you say.

[If there is a way to adjust to a reality like that, unable to change or influence it, he's not even sure he wants to know. This should feel wrong.]

Still better than nothing.

[ She'd been so disoriented by this place when she'd first arrived that it took a while just to accept this place was even real. Coming to terms with her own death has been another long process, and she's not even sure she'll ever actually come to terms with it. How can you, when you're in a place like this, still technically alive? ]

Sometimes I feel like I should be grateful, being here at all. But that feels wrong somehow.

I don't know about grateful. Not like it's a favour granted by some benevolent soul.

[Most of the time, it feels more like some insane experiment.]

Just make the most of it. All we can really do.

[ This place certainly isn't controlled by anyone or anything benevolent in nature, that's for sure. ]

It doesn't hurt that we have unlimited supplies. [ She smirks a little, and that's clearly one way she's tried making the most of it. ] Before I got here, I almost forgot how much I loved coffee.

You come from somewhere more restricted? [Not much of a question, given it's clear from how she talks, but he's giving her the space to expand on that or not, whatever suits.]

Coffee's a gift. You can fault this place for a lot of things, but at least that one's on point. Even if it's more of a tea spot.