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[ Monika is sitting placidly behind her piano, smiling like she has no cares in the world. However, something's...off.

Her ponytail is slightly askew, the bow drooping on one side, and her clothes aren't as clean and kempt as usual. But it's probably what's going on in the background that's more interesting.

As in her room is wrecked. Items are strewn about, things are broken, and her piano has an unmistakable crack in it. It's like a tornado tore through, that tornado being her. She doesn't care about wars or any other stupid bullshit, because she has more important things weighing on her mind.

See, the past month hasn't been too good to her. She had a body for a while. And now she doesn't. Monika doesn't like that. The asshole that killed her? Not only ruined her short time with a body, but also got to hit and run in the completely unfun way. She really doesn't like that. And being held captive by a demented bear? REALLY NOT LIKING THAT. Noticing a pattern here?

In short, she mad.

She gives a pleasant little hum, resting her clasped hands on the piano's fallboard. ]

Just a quick question today! Are there any robots around?

[ She blinks, still smiling. There are no underlying issues to address here, no siree! She is toootally not getting desperate for freedom, nope nope nope.

Everything is ab~so~lute~ly~ perfect! ]

Just curious~

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O-Oh, I did?

[ She perks herself up and laughs. She can't have her mask slipping. ] Sorry! I'm just regretting hurting my piano, I guess.

[ Besides, how could anything outside hurt her? Haha... ]

Maybe I should use my time here to learn some better coping skills.

[That was one way to turn things around, so that was all right, he thought. He could see though that she was trying really hard.]

What are you coping with? Just the piano?

[ Urgh. There's so much to say. And she's already had to have this conversation once. ]

I...kinda died. A little. But that's the main issue, really! Nothing else!

[She what? And a little? That... That was already a pretty big deal.]

I'm sorry.

[It couldn't have been easy to just wake up from something like that.]

It's okay if you're upset. I'm sorry I didn't know before.

Ahaha, it's not like you're a mind reader! [ Hopefully he isn't. ] And I've only told one other person...

[ She shakes her head, putting her smile back on. ] It's not a big deal now, honestly. I feel a lot better!

[ Mostly. Maybe. ]

Is it because you got to destroy things? Take it out on all of that?

[But he wondered if she really did feel better? This evasion technique seemed familiar. Too familiar.]

[ She bites her lip and glances away. ] Well...it felt nice. At first. Now I'm not so sure if it actually helped.

There's just something I really want, and I know I can't have it, so. Um. [ Weak laugh. ] It's probably weighing on my mind more than I realized.

[A temporary solution. Minato nodded though, and could only wish that there was more he could do for her. As for what she wanted, he wasn't sure if he should ask or if it was just something by way of explanation for her actions and to leave it at that. He went with the latter though for now since he wanted to respect her privacy.]

I'm sorry. Doing what you normally do hasn't made you feel better either, right?

[Hence the smashing stuff and not resorting to poetry or anything.]

[ Monika shrugs. ] Not really.

[ She smiles wistfully as she returns her gaze to his. ] I wish I could go back to the week of the carnival, you know? That'd be so nice. Like, if that week could last forever? [ Well, minus the dying, anyway. ] It'd be perfect.

[At some point, Minato thought everyone would want to go back and time and do it all over again or do something to make it better if not just for then but for the future too. He nodded.]

But that's why that time is precious or why we want things like that to last forever. It's because they don't.

[Unfortunately. He did smile a little back her.]

Are the memories of it something you wish you didn't have though?

[ There's a thoughtful silence. ]

Maybe. Maybe not. There were some totally great times! And some...pretty bad ones. [ Sigh. ] I dunno. Part of me almost wishes it hadn't happened, because it was exactly what I've always wanted. But on the other hand, I probably would've never had the chance to experience any of it. Especially not at home.

[ She laughs quietly. ] It's weird. Now I know how Sayori feels.

[Minato shook his head. He didn't think it was weird at all. He thought it was better if she had the experience than to live in oblivion and ignorance, even if it did hurt now that it was over.

He liked that soft laugh. He thought it was cute.]

I thought they were great too since I got to spend it with you.

[If he could say that. He had enjoyed their time together.]

Is this Sayori here now? Or is she at home?

[ Monika smiles at the first statement but doesn't comment on it. Thinking of that moment and its brevity is still difficult. ]

Yeah, Sayori's here. She was the vice president of my club. Didn't think I'd ever see her again!

[ Like, really. She was counting on that. ]

I hope I don't see the others, though. Ahaha, it'll be much better if they can stay home!

[Minato nodded at that, making a note that someone she knew was here. Maybe that made things not so bad, although being at home was probably best. For some people, anyway.]

Did you have a lot of members in your club?

[Would they be seeing more of them here? He was hoping that talking about something other that the destruction around her might be better for the time being.]

[ Her smile turns sheepish. ] Ahaha, no. There was only four of us, for the most part. So pretty tiny! It was hard to make the club seem interesting, but we were trying to.

[ Then things went to hell, but that wasn't her fault! ]

Oh, well. It was nice while it lasted!

At least you had that. And you can continue to write even if you're not in a club anymore.

[He hoped that she could and would still write as discouraged or frustrated she may have been.]

Sayori's mentioned maybe trying to restart it here, but... [ She shrugs. ] I don't think it'd be the same. What I had was a little too special to replicate.

Don't worry, though. [ Monika giggles softly. ] I'll always write, no matter what. It's what I was made for.

[Minato thought that made sense, if it were her club then she had some ownership over it, having been invested in it and all.]

You're good at it. It's already a privilege to get to read it.

[And her writing something out like that might be better than destroying things. He just worried that by doing that she'd hurt herself, and he didn't want that at all.]

[ She glances away. Her cheeks feel warm. It reminds her of how that felt when she was fleetingly real. Even if it's a fake sensation again, it's nice to experience it once more. ]

Thanks, Minato. You always seem to know what to say. It's uncanny.

[ She looks back, the warmth radiating from her face. ] Don't change.

For you, I won't.

[She was the one who had a way with words and he was only following her lead. He hoped too that she felt better now and would take care of herself.]

Things have been hard for you. If you need anything, I'll be here for you.

[ Her eyes shut briefly. It helps her get past the stab of yearning in her chest. ]

Same to you.

[ When she opens her eyes, she's smiling brightly again. ] Talk to you later!

See you soon.

[Minato gave her one last smile in return too before the connection ended. He had to trust her at this point, that she would still be okay after he wasn't there to check on her. That just meant he had to check on her later.]

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