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[shrimpheavennow]

[Eleanor isn't...great about being vulnerable as it is. But it's even worse knowing how many people she's about to open up to. So she takes a deep breath before she actually speaks, letting it out in a slow sigh. And gives the most forced smile ever.]

So...hi. I uh. I was gone, for a bit. Went back to my world and stuff happened and now I'm here again. And it kind of means my memory is all over the place, because, surprise, Michael reset my memory again while I was back there. And I'm kind of...having a hard time. I can't even remember which room was mine.

[Eugh, that was so honest and sincere. She closes her eyes, as if it doesn't count if she isn't looking. Honestly it doesn't work at all, and she stares into the camera again, expression tight.]

Just. What do you guys do to like...ignore how fucked up the inside of your head is? Fuck, nobody else is probably dealing with this. My point is I need a distraction, or maybe a head injury. Suggestions welcome. So. Bye, I guess.

[She scowls, annoyed at how that fell apart at the end, but. Fuck, she tried, right?]

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[shrimpheavennow]

Yeah, people are like, really good about coming together when they're stuck together, surprisingly. That's, uh, one thing I definitely remember.

[Eleanor frowns at her. She doesn't seem familiar.]

How long ago were you here?

[breakthecurse]

I think Souji said it's been about four years? It's really strange to think about. After all, four years ago from my perspective would have been elementary school! But someone remembers me exactly the age I am now, and hasn't seen me in four years...time works so oddly here.

[She really does wish she could remember it herself. She's been hoping that it will jsut come back to her, but so far nothing like that has happened.]

[shrimpheavennow]

Yeah, apparently time sends you right back to where you were, but I think they knocked me out right as I left last time so it's fitting together even less clearly.

[Eleanor rubs at one of her temples, annoyed.]

And people are from all across time and space and different universes so. Like, it's weird thinking this place was just sitting here, waiting for me four years ago when you were here, but then maybe it's just...always been here. And always will be.

[She groans. God, she's getting nauseous thinking about all this.]

[breakthecurse]

Y-You were knocked out?! Are you okay? Do you need ice for your head?

[She can't help getting immediately distracted by that revelation. Tohru got her memories erased, sure, but she didn't get knocked out in the process!]

It really is overwhelming to think about though...I didn't even know other worlds existed at all, so to suddenly have that knowledge is definitely a lot. But on the positive side, I'm meeting people I never would have met otherwise! Some of them for the second time!

[shrimpheavennow]

Eh, that's maybe not the right word for it. I think-- not here, but where I came from --I had my memories reset back to, uh, a certain point, and so there's conflicting memories from back there too.

[She's not sure whether any of that counts as actual brain damage since she was definitely dead as it was, but. Then she wasn't? So who knows.]

I mean, that's true. That's been valuable for me before. It's just starting to feel like it's all a lot more trouble than it's worth, so far as my sanity goes.