Ninth Transition [video]

[brainkegger]

[The feed flips on and Tara sits on her bed, eyes a little red. She clears her throat before speaking.]

So. I guess it became pretty clear during that event that I'm...not what you'd call "all there". I've got an explanation for that, but it's, uh, it's got nothing to do with magic. Unfortunately.

[She scratches at her neck, awkward. Hesitant. She wanted to avoid this for as long as possible but, well. There's no doing that now.

The most she can do is try and avoid saying what it is exactly.]

I have a psychological disorder. It can make me act pretty strange when it kicks in, but I swear I am not dangerous. I'm just...quirky.

[The word falls flat in the face of everything she's still hiding, but she tries not to show the discomfort in her face.]

Thanks for understanding, everyone. If you have any more questions, I can explain more specifically, but...to be honest, I don't want to become a freak show if I can avoid it.

Comments

[video]

[insidethechimney]

It's okay, T! We'll still be friends no matter what. Would riding on my back cheer you up?

[Yeah, Pinkie has no idea what she's talking about.]

[brainkegger]

It's, um. I'm not T. Not right now. Sometimes I am, but right now I'm Tara. Does that make sense?

[insidethechimney]

You're different? But you're in the same body?

[She processes this.]

Do you know who I am?

[brainkegger]

[She frowns and shakes her head.]

Not really.

[insidethechimney]

Aw. I'm Pinkie Pie and T rode my back and likes my cupcakes and one time she baked me sugar cookies. Also, I'm a talking horse. Humans sometimes get confused by that but it's normal where I'm from.

[onetruepurring]

[Nepeta, unfortunately, doesn't understand.]

I do not understand what exactly happens to you or why or how. [She adds this as an afterthought:] I do not think you are a dangerous purrson or a "freak!" I am just curious.

[private video forever]

[brainkegger]

[After a little fiddling, Tara manages to make their conversation private.]

Have you ever heard of multiple personalities?

[She wouldn't be surprised if trolls didn't have that, though.]

[onetruepurring]

[Nepeta does, too, out of common courtesy.]

No, I have not, but that does not mean it does not exist, right?

[brainkegger]

I can tell you that it does. It's basically what is...wrong with me.

When I was young something happened to me. Something traumatizing. And my mind responded by creating personalities to protect me. So sometimes I'm them instead of me.

[not_a_hero]

Pleasure to finally meet. I'm an acquaintance of Buck's.

[brainkegger]

[She winces a little.]

I guess you...caught on.

[not_a_hero]

Hardly a difficult deduction. And hardly my place to say anything before now. Certainly one of the more interesting mental disorders on display here, though, I must say.

[brainkegger]

I...guess, yeah.

[She doesn't really care for that look, though.]

[itsalluseless]

It may not mean much coming from a stranger, but compared to all the strange people I've seen here, you don't seem freakish at all.

[brainkegger]

Thanks. [She smiles.] Honestly, it means a lot.

[itsalluseless]

No need to thank me for just stating my opinion. Your mental condition's not your own fault, right? So no one has any right to treat you badly for it.

[brainkegger]

Haha, well, it hasn't stopped people before.

[text]

[thinkinman]

A psychological disorder doesn't mean you aren't "all there", and you are most degfinitely not a freak show, no matter what you suffer.

[..Is he a freak show?]

[video forever]

[brainkegger]

It's difficult to get people to understand that, sometimes. It's easier to just call me crazy and be done with it.

[text forever!!]

[thinkinman]

The people who don't understand that are preobably ignorant, if not afraid of you because you're different than them.

I can assure you you're not crazy.

[He's seen much, much crazier. Splicers, mostly.]

[FINE!!!]

[brainkegger]

Well. I appreciate it, but I can tell you I'm not totally right.

video; the latest reply ;;

[hahahaha]

So...you don't normally shoot things?

[video forever]

[brainkegger]

Buck does. I don't.

[hahahaha]

But...he? is you?

[private video forever]

[brainkegger]

Have you ever heard of multiple personality disorder?