9th side[video]

[masukukunai]

[The camera is pointed up at the ceiling, so you can't really see anything. In the background is the listless bwang bwang of a G chord being played over and over, followed by a dramatic sigh.]

I have been here way too long.

[The G chord switches to an E chord.]

I hate to say it, but there is such a thing as too much free time. When something awful's not happening, nothing's happening. And you know something's wrong when a guy like me starts missing school.

[Bwang bwang bwaaaaaang.]

How's a dude supposed to have fun around here?

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[eatsyourscience]

[Souji reaches up and around and plays in Yousuke's hair.]

[masukukunai]

[Now you're playing with his hair. Really. It feels pleasant, and he's nearly ashamed of himself for having that feeling. It was so...]

This is so gay.

[eatsyourscience]

[Pardon Souji while he rolls his eyes.]

[masukukunai]

I-it is, okay!

[He grumbles a little.]

I don't want to be the girl...

[eatsyourscience]

"The girl"?

[masukukunai]

Yeah, the girl.

[Come on Souji get with the picture! There is always a girl in gay couples!!! This is completely logical!!!!!]

[eatsyourscience]

...We're both boys, Yousuke.

[masukukunai]

I know that! But it's like... There's always one that's... You know. Attack and defend?

[His face is still very red. This is not a conversation he has ever wanted to have seriously with anyone.]

T-top and bottom?

[eatsyourscience]

So you want to be in charge?

[...]

Okay.

[masukukunai]

[What.]

What?

[Wait wait.]

I mean, for real? I mean, you were the one that asked, and you're the one that... You're Souji. Leader, remember?

[eatsyourscience]

If you're more comfortable that way, it's fine.

[masukukunai]

[...]

I don't know. It feels weird.

[If he's the one that makes the decisions, he becomes responsible for this own attractions. He's not sure if he can man up to that yet.]

[eatsyourscience]

Do we have to worry about it yet anyway?

[masukukunai]

[Oh yeah. That's true. Yousuke sighs with a tinge of relief.]

No. You're right.

[eatsyourscience]

You're overthinking it.

[masukukunai]

My problem is usually underthinking.

I just... I don't know what I'm doing, and I don't want to mess things up. I'm not used to it.

[eatsyourscience]

Neither am I.

[masukukunai]

[He grins a little despite himself.]

You don't act like it.

[eatsyourscience]

You worry about it more than I do.

[masukukunai]

Do you worry at all?