Text, event day 2, also a little action

[ssmisery]

[For the record, by this general point in time, Lapis actually would be willing to make video posts, but yeah, not right now. Maybe she should've done this sooner, too -- do people still need to be told what's going on? -- but it's already been a seriously long weekend.]

this one is mine
people are in the items
please let them out

[Straightforward!]

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[angewiesen]

Well. It explains nearly everything I've wondered about you.

[...]

Don't worry. It stays between us.

[ssmisery]

[...Was that a worry? Something is a worry, some subtle new kind of fear that Lapis isn't familiar with. Maybe it's that. Maybe.

She's never really had to tell anyone before that something bad happened to her. That is, she's told the story before, and she's danced around addressing the impact, but everyone on Earth who was familiar with her already knew that she was scared and hurt. And so she was used to that. It honestly hadn't occurred to her how different it is to be in Wonderland, surrounded by people who know nothing about her, until basically right now. So Jean says he's not going to tell anyone, but Lapis finds that he is not exempt from whatever that worry is, himself. It's too late to take that back, though, and anyway it's not like she didn't make an announcement to the entire populace. He would have been speculating anyway, wouldn't he? He basically just said so.]

like i said it's not like it matters anymore
it's not a secret
and i probably don't want to know what it explains
i should
maybe i shouldve done this differently

[angewiesen]

Uh, it kind of does matter. A lot.

Not to me, exactly. You're still just Lapis as far as I'm concerned. But you can't just blow off a thousand years trapped in a... Whatever it was you were trapped in. I'd think you were crazy if you could.

[ssmisery]

i've noticed that, yes
me telling you
doesn't matter
there's nothing you can say about it that i don't kwno already
and apparently you already knew there was something wrong with me
and wonderland already decided to turn my past into a puzzle everyone gets to solve
so why NOT just repeat it to everyone really
im just so tired of this

[angewiesen]

Whoever said there was something wrong with you?

It doesn't sound like anything that happened to you was your fault.

[ssmisery]

of course it wasnt
again
you cant tell me anything i dont already know
so stop

[...Except maybe the part about there not being something wrong with her, apparently. This is dumb. She's gotten better at handling this and she thought she was okay to talk about it a little to Jean, but now all she's doing is upsetting herself anyway.]

[angewiesen]

Okay, okay. I'm stopping.

Just...

Take care of yourself, okay?

[ssmisery]

i'll try

[That, at least, she can appreciate slightly better, although she has no idea what the heck she can do for herself right now. She's not even the one currently suffering, officially.]






by the way "millennia" is plural for the record

[angewiesen]

A good detail to know.