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[ Snow hasn't slept since she woke up. For the first time in so long, she's had nightmares about the burning room in the Netherworld, of being trapped in flames the way she was during the sleeping curse. So, she simply isn't going to sleep until she can talk to Regina and see about some kind of potion or magic that can put her under without having to dream of anything at all. Hopefully, something like that exists.

But this means that she's dwelling on what happened. Her death in protecting Emma, the fact that her daughter was indoctrinated anyway. And that leads her to late night texting. ]

For those of you that have family here, how do you deal with the idea that you can't always protect them?

[ It's not a concept that's new to Snow. She held her newborn in her arms for all of thirty seconds before putting her in a wardrobe that took her so far away. Snow has fought magic, ogres and Lost Boys for her daughter but this time she failed. This time, she couldn't keep the worst from happening. ]

I realize it's a broad question. But I'm not sure I've ever thought I couldn't protect my daughter before. Not until the past few days happened. Maybe I just needed to get the words out. It's much easier to type them than to admit them out loud.

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[Jolyne goes to answer, then stops, realizing how incredibly weird it feels that she can actually answer this. It's not something she's ever really thought about before.]

My uncle's here. He's usually pretty good about taking care of himself, so I just kind of hope that he can. Especially since I can't always be there to help him out when Wonderland decides to make everything hell.

[Like during that last event, but she's trying to not dwell on that. She's not really winning that mental fight right now though.]

I think they feel the same way about you.

[It didn't quite answer her question, but maybe it would speak to the feeling she had and the feeling they had for her too.]

You're going to be okay, Snow. You did everything you could, it's all any of us can do when the world comes at us.

[ Michonne's lost two children, and she knows this guilt deeply. ]

This place seems ready to throw all kinds of bullshit our way, sometimes it catches you off guard, happens to everyone and if they say it doesn't. they're fucking lying. So you failed her this time. Learn from it, do better. Next time, you'll be prepared.

you just gotta have faith that theyll be able to protect themselves sometimes. its hard when you cant help them but all you can do is try to be prepared for the next time something bad happens

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( he may be small but jon--understands this pain better than he really ever wanted to. it sucks, a lot, not being able to protect someone, especially-- )

My mom's here. Sometimes it--really hurts when something happens and I can't do anything to protect her, but I know that it goes both ways. Um. . I don't really know how anyone's supposed to deal with that, I guess? I just try to be as strong as I can.

I don't have any family here, but there's someone I really want to protect.

Unless you're a literal indestructible superhero, you're only human, man.

My family's not here, so maybe it's different not having that weighing on me, but I got a mom who busts her ass off for me. A kid knows when their parents are already doing everything they can. They ain't going to be disappointed you didn't do more than you could.

And you're here together, you get to deal with this shit as a team. That counts for a hell of a lot.

Wonderland does make it difficult to always know you can help.

[ But that leads her to a different question. ]

Are you glad he's here? I only mean in the sense of knowing him being here means that he has to go through these things. I know it must be a relief, not being alone.

I don't think you're wrong.

[ She knows Henry's having a hard time with this, thinking he should have saved them both. Apples don't fall far from family trees. ]

But as a mother who lost my daughter once, I never wanted anything to happen to her again.

This is the second time I've lost her, Michonne. The second time I couldn't protect her from something.

This is the second time. Granted, the incidents are 28 years apart. But I've still failed as a parent twice now.

[ But she is bound and determined not to let anything else happen to Emma ever again. Even if Snow has to add another death to her count. ]

Wonderland makes it amazingly difficult to prepare. Most of the time, we don't even know what to prepare for. Or, maybe if I were a better parent, I could come up with something.

[ No one needs to see her puffy eyes, but it feels odd to reply via text when she can see him, so she settles on audio. ]

It's certainly not easy to try and cope with. Sometimes being strong isn't easy, but it's good to always try.

[ She's not usually out of hope speeches and positivity, but here, she tries to muster up a little. ]

Family doesn't have to be who's related to you by blood. It's admirable that you want to protect someone else that way.

Have you been successful in Wonderland so far?

Wonderland proved that no matter what I thought I was, I'm certainly not indestructible.

[ It still hurts, dying. Not physically, of course, but in other ways. ]

Thank you, for saying that. It helps, really.

[ She's being serious; Emma and Henry know she tried, and Snow just needs to pull it together to be there for the two of them. ]

I'm sorry.

[Minato might not have understood fully what she was feeling, as a parent to a child, but he understood the idea of loss and doing whatever it took to not have it happen again.]

I know sometimes it's hard to forgive yourself even when nothing more could be done, even if you wanted to do more.

[ Michonne switches to private and lets out a breath. ]

You've done a hell of a lot fighting for your daughter, Snow. Sometimes we fight like hell and we lose them anyway. But you didn't lose her. She's a little scarred, but she's whole. She's as strong as you.

. . I don't think being strong is ever easy. ( or it hasn't been, at least. )

But it is still good to try. It's--important to be strong, especially here. Especially when you have friends and family who're here, too.

Okay, so you fucked up two times. You might fuck up again yet. No one's perfect. But you want to keep trying and that counts for something.

[Oh geez, isn't that the question of the week? That's been on Papyrus's mind for a while too.]

WELL, FOR ONE THING, I KNOW THAT MY BROTHER IS VERY FORMIDABLE IN BATTLE. IF HE GETS INTO REAL TROUBLE, I KNOW THAT HE'LL BE ABLE TO GET OUT OF HARM'S WAY IN NO TIME AT ALL, AS WELL AS DISH OUT A FEW ATTACKS OF HIS OWN!! SO, USUALLY, I'M NOT WORRIED ABOUT HIS SAFETY IN MOST SITUATIONS.

[Most. But...]

STILL...I...THINK I SEE WHERE YOU'RE COMING FROM?? I'M NOT 100% SURE HOW TO DEAL WITH IT EITHER. AS SOON AS I KNOW HOW, I'LL LET YOU KNOW, THOUGH!!

I think so. Or at least, she hasn't gotten hurt yet. I don't think that's always been because of me, though. She's made some good friends.

[Guess who figured out text-to-speech? This guy! Good thing, too, because he's also figured out that there's a whole host of things he's been missing by not working it out sooner.]

Don't have any... here... but... [He pauses, tripping over his own thoughts as he tells himself that it isn't what she asked and wonders why he's speaking at all.]

Back home. There's someone I want to k-... keep safe. And I don't know if I can.

nah im sure you did your best this last event thing was real fucked up so there wasnt much any of us could have done

back home im in charge of protecting everyone but sometimes id mess up and people got hurt or died. we were lucky that everything reset after a year and wed all get a second chance of life but i just tried to do better the next time and leaned on my family for help when i needed it

[While their hundred year journey was hard and they all died at least once, they at least benefited from regenerating at the end of each year cycle and were able to come back fresh for the next cycle. It's similar here in Wonderland, though here you've only got five shots...and he wasn't sure if this last one counted toward those lives.]

[Hopefully he didn't die four more times and have to figure that one out the hard way.]

You can sure say that again.

_{[He hadn't died, hasn't died, but despite taking Shepard's warnings to heart and trying to play it safe, despite every attempt to keep himself safe so he could keep others safe, his mind had stopped being his own almost without him realizing.

It's scary, how easily and completely a rug that should be nailed down can go out from under your feet.]}

That last one was a doozy. Sorry to hear you and your family got dragged into it. If anyone deserves to have a guilty conscience, it's whatever fucker's behind Wonderland.

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