Snow White (
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Entry tags:
- erased: satoru fujinuma,
- fables: grendel,
- jjba: jolyne kujo,
- marvel: sharon carter,
- marvel: tony stark,
- once upon a time: emma swan,
- once upon a time: snow white,
- persona 3: arisato minato,
- persona 5: ryuji sakamoto,
- the adventure zone: magnus burnsides,
- the walking dead: michonne,
- undertale: papyrus
3rd Snow fall / text
[ Snow hasn't slept since she woke up. For the first time in so long, she's had nightmares about the burning room in the Netherworld, of being trapped in flames the way she was during the sleeping curse. So, she simply isn't going to sleep until she can talk to Regina and see about some kind of potion or magic that can put her under without having to dream of anything at all. Hopefully, something like that exists.
But this means that she's dwelling on what happened. Her death in protecting Emma, the fact that her daughter was indoctrinated anyway. And that leads her to late night texting. ]
For those of you that have family here, how do you deal with the idea that you can't always protect them?
[ It's not a concept that's new to Snow. She held her newborn in her arms for all of thirty seconds before putting her in a wardrobe that took her so far away. Snow has fought magic, ogres and Lost Boys for her daughter but this time she failed. This time, she couldn't keep the worst from happening. ]
I realize it's a broad question. But I'm not sure I've ever thought I couldn't protect my daughter before. Not until the past few days happened. Maybe I just needed to get the words out. It's much easier to type them than to admit them out loud.
But this means that she's dwelling on what happened. Her death in protecting Emma, the fact that her daughter was indoctrinated anyway. And that leads her to late night texting. ]
For those of you that have family here, how do you deal with the idea that you can't always protect them?
[ It's not a concept that's new to Snow. She held her newborn in her arms for all of thirty seconds before putting her in a wardrobe that took her so far away. Snow has fought magic, ogres and Lost Boys for her daughter but this time she failed. This time, she couldn't keep the worst from happening. ]
I realize it's a broad question. But I'm not sure I've ever thought I couldn't protect my daughter before. Not until the past few days happened. Maybe I just needed to get the words out. It's much easier to type them than to admit them out loud.
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My uncle's here. He's usually pretty good about taking care of himself, so I just kind of hope that he can. Especially since I can't always be there to help him out when Wonderland decides to make everything hell.
[Like during that last event, but she's trying to not dwell on that. She's not really winning that mental fight right now though.]
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[ But that leads her to a different question. ]
Are you glad he's here? I only mean in the sense of knowing him being here means that he has to go through these things. I know it must be a relief, not being alone.
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[It didn't quite answer her question, but maybe it would speak to the feeling she had and the feeling they had for her too.]
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[ She knows Henry's having a hard time with this, thinking he should have saved them both. Apples don't fall far from family trees. ]
But as a mother who lost my daughter once, I never wanted anything to happen to her again.
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[ Michonne's lost two children, and she knows this guilt deeply. ]
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[ But she is bound and determined not to let anything else happen to Emma ever again. Even if Snow has to add another death to her count. ]
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My mom's here. Sometimes it--really hurts when something happens and I can't do anything to protect her, but I know that it goes both ways. Um. . I don't really know how anyone's supposed to deal with that, I guess? I just try to be as strong as I can.
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It's certainly not easy to try and cope with. Sometimes being strong isn't easy, but it's good to always try.
[ She's not usually out of hope speeches and positivity, but here, she tries to muster up a little. ]
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Have you been successful in Wonderland so far?
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My family's not here, so maybe it's different not having that weighing on me, but I got a mom who busts her ass off for me. A kid knows when their parents are already doing everything they can. They ain't going to be disappointed you didn't do more than you could.
And you're here together, you get to deal with this shit as a team. That counts for a hell of a lot.
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[ It still hurts, dying. Not physically, of course, but in other ways. ]
Thank you, for saying that. It helps, really.
[ She's being serious; Emma and Henry know she tried, and Snow just needs to pull it together to be there for the two of them. ]
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WELL, FOR ONE THING, I KNOW THAT MY BROTHER IS VERY FORMIDABLE IN BATTLE. IF HE GETS INTO REAL TROUBLE, I KNOW THAT HE'LL BE ABLE TO GET OUT OF HARM'S WAY IN NO TIME AT ALL, AS WELL AS DISH OUT A FEW ATTACKS OF HIS OWN!! SO, USUALLY, I'M NOT WORRIED ABOUT HIS SAFETY IN MOST SITUATIONS.
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STILL...I...THINK I SEE WHERE YOU'RE COMING FROM?? I'M NOT 100% SURE HOW TO DEAL WITH IT EITHER. AS SOON AS I KNOW HOW, I'LL LET YOU KNOW, THOUGH!!
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My daughter can protect herself, too, and she's amazing at it. But there are those few times I feel as if I could have done more to help. if you do ever find out, we should get together and talk it out over hot cocoa.
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Don't have any... here... but... [He pauses, tripping over his own thoughts as he tells himself that it isn't what she asked and wonders why he's speaking at all.]
Back home. There's someone I want to k-... keep safe. And I don't know if I can.
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Your world is dangerous, I know. I imagine the feeling is the same about someone you care about being here. There are too many things outside our control to make it feasible to always protect them. I know that, logically.
[ And yet, here she is, making this announcement on the network. ]
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[ way to go, tony stark. ]
or you don't. there are ways to do that too.
heavy drinking
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all the fun stuff.
[ but you know what? he just got back from home, the fear she's talking about is fresh in his bones and so: ]
you try.
that's all you can do. you try your damn hardest and hope it'll be enough.
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You sound like you speak from experience.
I can't understand how doing my hardest was literally dying and it still wasn't enough.
[ It just feels like a fail to her. You protect the people you love with an ultimate sacrifice, and still, something terrible happens to them. ]
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Snow isn't the only one who feels she'd failed to protect someone.]
Can we talk? Meet somewhere?
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Of course. You could just come here, to my room? Or I can come to you.
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heading towards a wrap!
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I'm lucky - I've known that the people I care about here could protect themselves. I have to trust that they'll be okay even if I can't protect them.
This place... [ She pauses as she puts together the words as best she can. ] It forces you to accept how little power you have. All you can do is what you can, and then hope for the best. [ She doesn't add that the worst still happens. Either the people you care about leave, or you leave them. Either way, people suffer. ]
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I've been through this before, this exact pain. I thought I could cope with it better than I am, but I'm not.
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