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[ Snow hasn't slept since she woke up. For the first time in so long, she's had nightmares about the burning room in the Netherworld, of being trapped in flames the way she was during the sleeping curse. So, she simply isn't going to sleep until she can talk to Regina and see about some kind of potion or magic that can put her under without having to dream of anything at all. Hopefully, something like that exists.

But this means that she's dwelling on what happened. Her death in protecting Emma, the fact that her daughter was indoctrinated anyway. And that leads her to late night texting. ]

For those of you that have family here, how do you deal with the idea that you can't always protect them?

[ It's not a concept that's new to Snow. She held her newborn in her arms for all of thirty seconds before putting her in a wardrobe that took her so far away. Snow has fought magic, ogres and Lost Boys for her daughter but this time she failed. This time, she couldn't keep the worst from happening. ]

I realize it's a broad question. But I'm not sure I've ever thought I couldn't protect my daughter before. Not until the past few days happened. Maybe I just needed to get the words out. It's much easier to type them than to admit them out loud.

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You can sure say that again.

_{[He hadn't died, hasn't died, but despite taking Shepard's warnings to heart and trying to play it safe, despite every attempt to keep himself safe so he could keep others safe, his mind had stopped being his own almost without him realizing.

It's scary, how easily and completely a rug that should be nailed down can go out from under your feet.]}

That last one was a doozy. Sorry to hear you and your family got dragged into it. If anyone deserves to have a guilty conscience, it's whatever fucker's behind Wonderland.

I don't think whatever's in charge has a conscience at all if I'm being honest. Otherwise, they wouldn't keep putting us through these things.

Would they?

You ain't wrong. I dunno if the Core or whatever always needed to feed off people like this, but it's done a hell of a job turning Wonderland and the natives into seriously sick puppies.

And you can't even get near the thing without it turning your brain inside out! It's total bull.

We have an enemy we literally can't fight because it always changes.

[ This place really is kind of terrible. ]

Wonderland should never be boring, then.

[ She has no idea if that's a bright side or not. ]

Wouldn't say that--we can still fight it. It changes 'cause it's reflecting what's inside us back at us, but there's something causing it. A distortion or something like it. That's the thing we gotta go after.

I mean, I get people here a lot longer than me have spent a lot longer trying to figure it out, but every place like this I've ever been in had a center. A key to pulling it all down.

Anyway, sorry. Didn't mean to get off topic. That's just my take.

Hang in there, either way. This place only wins when it starts taking your hope away from you.

It's almost impossible to know what we're going up against from fortnight to fortnight. I guess I'm saying I don't know how to go after something I can't anticipate. What exactly would we be going after?

[ A queen? If a queen is actually in charge. That alone is suspect. ]

And no need to apologize. I still have plenty of hope to go around or family to make sure I do. So much death in only a few days tends to knock me down a few pegs.

The distortion at the heart of all this. I'd bet money it has something to do with the Core.

_{[Whether the Core represents the sentient Wonderland, or is just another facet of it, or...

Ugh, this shit never fails to tie his brain in knots.]}

I dunno what that's like... Can't say I envy you. Sorry.

_{[For what she's gone through. For what Wonderland's put her through.]}

I've heard rumors we can't even get close to the Core without something happening to us. But I don't know much more than that.

[ It's all just speculation that she's heard for now. ]

No need to apologize. Thanks for even attempting to talk it out with me.

Yeeep. Total bull. Something that dangerous has gotta be like Wonderland's brain or something--or it's stomach.

_{[Even if the Core isn't the so-called "Treasure" behind all of this, destroying it would still save a lot of memories--not to mention it would be satisfying.]}

When bad stuff happens, you talk it out. That's like healthy coping shit.

[ She can't help but smile a little down at her device. ]

At least I'm coping right, then.

[ A point for Snow! ]

Coping at all is a damn good thing.

_{[Take it easy on yourself, okay?]}

The name's Sakamoto Ryuji, by the way. You can prolly read the ID but I figured I'd say it anyway. Can I ask--so you and your kid both got stuck here?

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