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[grahamalytical]

[ Even though he's been in Wonderland for nearly two months at this point, this is the first time Will has made a post on the network, and only about the fourth time he's used his device at all. He's not a terrifically outgoing person, and it's easy for him to assume that people are probably better off without his input in most cases.

However, the network is clearly a good way to get answers and information, and ever since his conversation with Bedelia... He's been thinking a lot about "home". Been wondering if there are any people here in similar circumstances. It's been on his mind enough that eventually, he settles on simply straight-up asking people, if only to shut the train of thought down and put an end to the curiosity. And, perhaps, put himself a bit at ease. If that's even a possibility.

The question isn't posed through video, or even audio. This is more easily handled through text. And, it...makes the whole thing slightly less awkward, which doesn't hurt. ]

Is anyone out there uncertain about whether or not you'd like to go home?

Do you feel as though Wonderland may be the lesser of two evils? That you may be better off here than where you've come from?

[ Come and discuss any doubts you have about wanting to return to your world, Wonderland. Maybe you'll make him feel better about the disaster he'll be walking back into if and when he ever goes home. ]

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[digiorno]

No.

[That . . . may not have been the answer Will wanted. Nevertheless, it comes almost immediately and with total confidence. Giorno is always watching the network. He's always watching a lot of things.]

No matter how comfortable Wonderland may appear at times, I know that there are things that must be accomplished at home that only I can do. Action is always more taxing than inaction, but personally I prefer to control my own destiny rather than let someone else do it for me.

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[grahamalytical]

[ Truth be told, he isn't looking for any specific answer. Ones from others who are in similar circumstances to his own are preferred, but that doesn't mean he'll ignore those who want to return home. ]

Understandable. Your life being under your own control is always preferable. Some people don't have much, if anything, to return to, however. Or, possibly worse conditions or circumstances than they are under in Wonderland.

It's good to hear that there are some who have no doubt about wishing to return home, though.

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[failedparenting]

yes

i try to hunt shit down like this back home and then it gave me my wife.

[He's already taken such a hard line stance on Wonderland in the past, he doesn't need anyone to see him doubting.]

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[grahamalytical]

Wonderland brought your wife? And that's what's made you uncertain about whether you want to go back?

[ Just clarifying that he's reading the message correctly. One thing about text is that it's more difficult to get a read on people--but that's another big part of Will's reason for opting for it. ]

She isn't around at home, I take it.

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[voiceinthedark]

Two words.

Zombie. Apocalypse.

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[grahamalytical]

I've heard there are people from places in a zombie apocalypse.

That's a solid reason to prefer Wonderland. It must almost feel like a blessing to be here rather than there.

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[singloversing]

I don't know? It's kind of complicated. But I probably have to go home at some point. I mean, I can't just stay here forever.

[He has a life to go back to, after all. ...Hopefully. The more he thinks about that though, the more Wonderland starts to sound like a good alternative.]

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[grahamalytical]

I don't think any of us will be here forever, no. I'm more curious as to how some people feel regarding the inevitable return.

If you don't know and it's complicated, you're in the same boat I am. I'm assuming there are things at home that you'd rather not deal with?

[ Most of them have lives to go back to, but nothing says those lives are good. There's no say if they'll ever be able to escape the bad things or people in their lives... That's what scares Will. ]

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[nascensibility]

[Of all people to send out a Wonderland-wide message of this particular stripe, Evelyn didn't anticipate it being Will. With this in mind she has to wonder how much he knows about his future, and who told him. He has yet to come to her asking questions about their shared past and she isn't surprised - it's not unlike him to avoid that sort of conflict when he can, to save himself the trouble.

This missive suggests digging.

Evelyn also loathes sending messages via text, it feels so damnably like telegrams, but if it's what makes him most comfortable-]

Some people do not have homes to which they can return.

I died in my world.

[It's no secret to anyone close to her, but Evelyn doesn't like to broadcast the fact, either.]

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[grahamalytical]

[ He's learned an unfortunate amount about what has yet to come to him, and he has the feeling that what he's been told isn't even the true extent of it. It's given him all the more reason to be uncertain about how much he really wants to return home, even if Wonderland is far from the ideal place to be, either.

A message from Evelyn is a bit of a surprise, but it's the contents of the message that truly shock him. ]

I'm sorry. I didn't know.

I've had the suspicion that death doesn't matter to Wonderland for a while now. Those who have been brought here after death have far more reason to prefer being here, I suppose.

[ Assuming they don't think death is better than this... ]

[luckynumberthree]

If you're saying that's how you might be feeling about it? Then no. You're not the only one. There's more than a few of us here who have nothing to go home to.

[grahamalytical]

I suspected as much, and I'm slowly gaining proof of it. I haven't yet heard many peoples' stories and I suppose I was curious.

[ Actually, he's more looking for reassurance then sating his curiosity, but nobody needs to know that part. ]

[suicidemission]

At home I'm dead, so.

[grahamalytical]

So you have nothing to go back to. I guess there's nothing to be uncertain about there. Wonderland must be better than death.

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[allaboutme]

personal experience talking?

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[grahamalytical]

You could say that. Someone here shed a bit of light on my future.

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[demonstrate]

I understand some people have reasons to put off going back home, but for me, it doesn't feel right. Being here, that is. And I'm not sure it ever will or should. I have my family, my job, my whole life to get back to. [ caitlin, barry, and wells aren't looking to stay in wonderland permanently either, but she won't judge others who think differently. ]

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[grahamalytical]

I can't say that being here feels right to me, either. But of the two places, this one is looking to to be better than the other.

Hopefully you won't be here long, if you have things to look forward to returning to.

[ He can understand those with family, good jobs, and good lives wanting to go home. It's unfortunate that they've gotten brought to a place like this in the first place. When your job is making you lose your grip on sanity, however, and you learn here that your friend has been manipulating you since the moment you met... Well, you question whether that's really better than magic events and memory loss. ]

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[mypartnerintime]

All these replies you're getting are crazily interesting.

I didn't know the Wonderland option was so popular.

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[grahamalytical]

Neither did I. I've been under the impression that most want to return home as soon as possible.

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[punful]

yeah.

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[grahamalytical]

Can I ask why?

Don't share if you don't want to. My poll is only regarding whether one is uncertain or not.

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[easily]

While my family was not in a good place back home I can't imagine staying here forever, not all of us are here to begin with and there is someone important we need to get back to.

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[grahamalytical]

What if you were all here? Would that change anything?

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[ofletters]

[ Interesting. Why are you asking, Will Graham? ]

Depends on the day. I've been here three years and counting so it's become more like home than the alternative.
If we had to make the choice right now I'm not sure what I'd do.

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[grahamalytical]

I suppose three years is long enough to grow accustomed to the oddities of Wonderland.
Even so, "home" must not have been great either, if you're torn between the two.

[ But this is merely a guess. ]

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[naughty_nurse]

I'm scared about being sent back. It was a horrible situation. Things can be horrible here too, but they're a guarantee horrible. There's rules to this horrible.

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[grahamalytical]

True. And there's always an end to this horrible. It doesn't last more than a few days and there's always a break between events.
At home, there's no saying how long horrible things may last.

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[rosswood]

No. Here is better.

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[grahamalytical]

You're the first I've come across who's certain, but certain that they'd rather stay here.
You must have come from something particularly horrible.

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[endingpoint]

[ Jane's thought about this question a lot. More than she wants to admit out loud. At home it feels like nothing can ever be figured out, like Kurt and the team will hate her, loathe her, want to lock her away and throw away the key.

But here. Here, she and Kurt have worked through things, they've figured it all out, and if she goes back now, they're back to zero. If she goes back, she may never get to clear her name. ]

I know I shouldn't want to stay here. I should go home, we all should, probably.
but here I'm with people who still care about me.

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[grahamalytical]

Is that not the case where you've come from?

[ It's true, none of them should want to stay here, but as Will is learning, so many people have so many different reasons for believing that Wonderland may be the better choice.

For himself, after learning some of his not-so-distant future, it feels as though Wonderland may just be the safer place for him to stay. ]

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[morethanasidekick]

I dont know about lesser but at least when things try to kill me here it doesnt take
Hard to hate a kidnapping with perks

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[grahamalytical]

I suppose that's one way to look at it.
With the trauma that death no doubt causes, however, I'm not sure I'd consider not staying dead to be much of a perk.

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[accelerate]

[ in the beginning, barry had been set to go home. he still is, to a point. but he's beginning to wonder if he should. wonderland's a stop that's sucked him in and given him no choice but to walk through its door and into its world, and he's beginning to wonder if he can go back home and face what he's done. ]

[ the reason why he's so quick is because he doesn't like to mull over how far the ripple effect can go once he throws a stone into an otherwise undisturbed pond. ]

Sometimes I want to go home, sometimes I don't.

I like the all-you-can-eat buffet. And the fact that it's free? Seriously cool.

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[grahamalytical]

I won't argue that it isn't nice.

That said, I don't think I'd consider the food alone enough reason to want to stay.

[ Assuming he didn't have a shitstorm to return to at home, that is. But given that he's taking into consideration the possibility that what he's been told is true... He'll take all the perks he can get with Wonderland. ]

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[lifeskills]

_{[Will's either read his mind (not outside the realm of possibility), or he's having a similar crisis of faith.]}

That would depend on the nature of the evil, I think.

Here our agency is limited and the greatest damage is inflicted on us by Wonderland. Out there the boundaries blur. We are tempted by the same weaknesses and vices we left behind.

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[grahamalytical]

[ No mind reading here. ]

We can be tempted by weaknesses and vices here, as well. Depending on what one's vices are.

Our agency may be limited here and there is still danger, but we're also safe from circumstances that may not have been healthy for us, not to mention removed from those who may wish us harm.

Wonderland is by no means great, but it may still be better for some than the places they've come from.

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[hyperkinesia]

I might've been better off here if there weren't so many people around. As it is, I'm not really sure.

[ And yes, he is perfectly aware of who he's talking to right now. Text does make things a whole lot easier for an avoidant coward like him, but maybe Fitz was right. Maybe ignoring everything and acting as if neither of them were affected by what happened during that event isn't going to help.

This isn't much, granted. He's not directly addressing the issue and it's unlikely he will, unless Will himself brings it up. But it's a start. ]

It's complicated. Both places have bad things. But I was lost and alone back home. [ Still a little lost here, but a different kind of lost. ]

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[grahamalytical]

[ Oh.

This is an unexpected response. Not in the content so much as who it's from. Since the Genova event, Will has absolutely been avoiding Bruce--which hasn't been terribly difficult, given they don't technically even know one another. He's not one to approach an awkward situation and make an attempt to resolve it, and with the residual feelings, with the knowledge he has of Bruce that may or may not hold true outside of the event... It makes the idea of approaching him doubly awkward.

Still. He won't ignore Bruce contacting him directly. At least it's only text, that makes this easier. ]

But you're not lost and alone here?

The bad things in one place must be worse than the other. For me, I think that may be home.

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[brainleak]

complicated
hate that everythings transient
here and home

[In the words of someone who's left:] here i am not a monster
not running only hiding
but i dont have my crew

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[grahamalytical]

So you feel safer here, but you're missing your friends.
Am I getting that right?

"Not a monster" -- what do you mean by that?
You don't have to answer if you'd rather not. It just struck a chord with me.

late to the party sob; Text;

[righthemisphere]

I'm starting to think I'm better off here. A lot happened just before I arrived. I might be dead back there. I have no way of knowing.

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[grahamalytical]

I've heard from people who are dead where they come from, but I'd argue that it being a possibility and not knowing if you are or not is actually worse.
You won't know until you go back. I can only imagine what that's like to deal with.

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[mandrakes]

((ooc: apologies for how late this is - I've been without internet for a while, but I HAD to answer this))

Undoubtedly. I was not in the most tenable position when I departed, and it was not something which was likely to change for the better in any short amount of time.

Wonderland is not as far as I had intended to travel, but it serves its purpose.

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[grahamalytical]

[ ooc: no worries! never too late ]

Was there the potential for eventual change? If so, you may have been better off travelling to a place where time isn't paused.