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What do you do when someone breaks your trust in them? Is there a way to regain it? Should it be regained? How do you learn to trust anyone again?

[And then, after some time...]

[PRIVATE VOICE TO FIDDLEFORD]

Is the offer for memory erasure... s-still open?

((OOC: unless stated otherwise, all her replies will be anon!))

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then you chose the wrong person
just cuz you love them dont mean they can do whatever
cant it be someone else

Don't you think I would choose differently if I could?

well i guess
i dunno about love or shit like that
but dont you have other friends
theyre not your only friend right

I've known this person longer than most of my other friends.

If I couldn't trust this person, how can I trust people I've known for less time?

Haah?

[ Mondo can't help but let out a noise reading the text message he received. Scratching his head in contemplation, he eventually types a response, a few minutes later. ]

just cuz u know em longer dont mean theyre more trustworthy
dunno bout u but some peeps i know here r better than those i know back home

Really? You think so?

yeah
weird i know
havent known them for long
but feels like i can trust em
gut feeling ya know

I guess there are some feelings you just can't help.

[ Not knowing who's on the other side is tough. There's a strange urge to reach out to this person, but there's also a huge part of him who's afraid of doing so. He can't even trust himself, how is he supposed to trust someone who he doesn't know who? ]

your feelings are yours
its fine if you dont wanna trust them anymore
but lemme tell ya
not everyone will betray you

I want to believe that. I might even force myself to believe it.

[And not just in feel good way, literally forcing herself via SCIENCE]

[ MIKAN NO ]

forcing wont do
ya wont get anythin by lying to yourself

[ Been there, done that. ]

It's not a lie if I don't remember it. Maybe if I forget it, it can all go away.

whaddaya mean with dont remember it
you cant erase memories

[ HA HA HA ]

What if there was a way to?

ー!

[ Mondo takes longer to respond this time, thinking of this possibility. If it's possible, then sure, it can be convenient. But is that really the right way? ]

sure if ya wanna do it that way
but ya wont grow
if that person do it again youll be stuck on a loop

[ He's probably not one to speak about this, but at least, he feels that he's trying to overcome his past with his own hands. ]

I can keep forgetting, though! Then everyone will be happy! I won't be hurt because I'll keep forgetting the pain! So it won't mater if they hurt me again and again and again!

[ Is this person serious...?! Goddammit. If only Mondo knows who's at the other end, he'll give them a good smack on the head to bring them back to Earth. Well. Wonderland, in this case. They're going crazy. ]

what if one day ya cant erase yer memories anymore
look erasing memories aint normal
there might be side effects
yer gonna regret it more later on

[Ah. What if... McGucket did return home? Would he leave behind instructions how to work his machines? She'd better ask him.]

Why is so wrong to want to forget the worst things? Do you have nothing you want to forget?

i aint sayin its wrong
just
aint you worried of what it can cause
things can go wrong
they can erase the wrong memories

I can make new memories, as long as I'm here.

[ Mondo grunts in frustration at the response. Why is he trying so hard? He doesn't even know who's on the other side.

Even so, he can't seem to just let it be. ]

aint there memories you wanna keep tho
not sayin what happened was a small thing but
risking em all just to get rid of that one dont sound right to me

Do you think that could happen? Losing them all just by trying to get rid of one?

i dunno
dont even know how youre plannin to get rid of it
but like i said its not normal
anything can happen

I'll think about it.

[ Mondo's not sure what this person is planning, but at least, he hopes they'll think twice about that. As much as he despises some of his memories, it's part of what he is, and he doesn't want to deny it anymore ー it's like he's denying the people whom he had hurt before. But more than anything, he'll hate to lose some of his better ones, as they're what keeping him going on. Surely, it's the same for this person?

After debating for a moment, he decides not to respond to the text anymore. It's for the person to decide. Heck, it could be someone he doesn't really like, he won't know. He's done what he can. ]

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