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Right, so, now that I've been here a full month - [She pauses, glancing over at the tally marks she's made in her book.]

Give or take a few days here and there, I figure it's time to accept a few facts.

[She holds up a finger to signal that she's about to give fact number one.]

First, the rabbit hole out of here probably isn't located in the ocean or the forest. Which means it's hidden somewhere right under my nose. Just have to work a bit harder to find it.

Second, I should probably bump twice a day up to a bit more than that. [Oh, that one's a big vague, isn't it? She just glosses right over it, and holds up three fingers.]

Third, I desperately need more ways to occupy my time. Anyone with lessons, work that needs to be done, souffles to bake, games to play? I'm your girl.

[A pause, and she grins, something pleading and hopefully charming. Don't you want to do things with her, Wonderland? Come on.]

Also. Anyone else encounter particularly vivid living nightmares a handful of days ago? That wasn't very nice. [Feeling a bit awkward at the last part, she just cuts off and ends things there.]

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[So it's like that, then. Martha takes a few moments to think that over. She's never really been scared of letting people get close to her. It's true that the Doctor had hurt her in ways he hadn't even meant to, because of her own feelings for him, but she doesn't necessarily hold that against him.

It's not like someone can control their own feelings so easily, at least not always.]

Are you... anticipating that once this is all over with, you wouldn't be able to see them again?

[It's possible, especially if different and parallel universes are involved. It's something that Martha's thought about before too, but she hasn't like it stop her from befriending people.]

Something like that.

[She doesn't reveal the whole truth, that's she's just afraid in general. People getting too close, people having to be cut off from her because of this place.]

I mean, I have to assume I'll see you again back home. Someday, at least. But some of the others...

[She trails off, frowning. She knows that she shouldn't be letting this get to her like this, but it's easy to talk to Martha about the things that are bothering her. So her friend is going to get the very stunted version of her emotions.]

[Even if it's a stunted version, it's still something. Martha may not know Clara well enough to read between the lines completely, but she can at least see that she's bothered by all this, that she's got things she's worrying over.]

We'll have to make certain we see each other back home. It's not fair how the Doctor tries to keep us apart. [She inputs a bit of levity, offering a brief smile along with that comment.]

In any case, he can get to most places. It's just parallel universes that are off-limits. [A lot of people here are probably from those, true, but not everyone.] 10,000 Places to See, was it? You may just need to add a few more to that list.

Oh, we're gonna see plenty of each other. [Clara's determined about that, at least. Out of everyone here, she considers Martha to be the closest to her, someone she can trust no matter what. And that's a big deal, to someone like her.]

So I'll add a few more places to my list, and you can come along. It'll be brilliant.

[The words sound nice, but she doesn't quite have the enthusiasm in her tone to make it seem like she believes them.]

It's easier with you. Things don't have a romantic tension there that's threatening to burst.

[Like it does with a couple of other people. Look, Martha, she's dropping more hints into the conversation about her big issue with things.]

[While Martha nods along when Clara mentions that they could travel together, in reality she feels the same way about it. As much as she would like for it to happen, at least once, she doesn't know if it truly will. For one thing, they might forget they ever met when they leave this place. For another, she doesn't know if that Doctor's going to want to bring her along, not after his regeneration and everything else. It's one of those insecure thought that crops up -- rarely now, but they still do -- and she hates it.

So in a way, she's grateful that Clara moves on, switching the subject to something that's easier to talk about -- for her, at least.]

Romantic tension, is it? Am I allowed to ask for any more details than that?

[She's dying to know who Clara might have a budding romance with, even if it's something that won't turn into anything serious in the end. She isn't huge on gossip, but Clara's a friend and so it's natural for Martha to be curious about her.]

[Biting at her lip, Clara nods. She doesn't verbally answer Martha's question, and although she looks uncomfortable with the subject, she's willing to at least give it a try. She needs to get some things off her chest, or attempt to, it's starting to weigh on her, the confusion and the tension and everything building up.]

What kind of details do you want to know?

[She'll most likely only nod yes or no at first and keep her answers as vague as possible, but this is a good exercise for her to try out.]

[The last thing that Martha wants to do is make her uncomfortable, but it seems like she's already done that. Then again, Clara wouldn't have even given her that many details if she truly didn't want to talk about it, so there must be something more to this.]

I suppose the first thing I thought of is... who's involved, but if that's too direct, then I'm still wondering what you meant by upping it from twice a day.

[She's not here to judge, she's just trying to be of help in some way, though Martha's also willing to back off if it turns out that she's being too direct. It's always hard to tell with someone you've only recently gotten to know.]

When you spend time around certain people day after day, you tend to fancy them, just a bit. The tiniest amount, really. It barely counts as fancying, but it's something you're curious about all the same.

[She's got no idea how to describe it, and is surprised by her ability to actually vocalize words instead of just nodding or shaking her head. She smiles at that accomplishment, at least.]

Don't think I'm ready to give the who just yet, though.

[It's not as if Martha doesn't understand that. She's fallen for people too, sometimes very quickly, and increased exposure to a person usually only increases those feelings, at least until the initial crush wears off. But sometimes it doesn't, and sometimes you're carrying that torch for far too long.]

So... are you aiming to talk to these people more, or less? [Martha doesn't know if Clara wants those feelings to develop or be snuffed out. It's possible she hasn't really decided yet. Martha herself can see why getting into a relationship in this place could be seen as a very bad idea, because they are going to leave here someday and there might be no way to find the person you care for. But at the same time, if it's something more casual, then what's the harm in it?]

Dunno. [She sighs, reaching up to run a hand through her hair. She really has no idea what she wants, or how she wants to go about doing those things that she isn't sure she wants. For someone that usually has such a good head on her shoulders and knows exactly what she wants and when she wants it, she's entirely indecisive and unsure about all of this, and it drives her crazy.]

Guess I just need to accept that this is one of those things that will either make more sense in time or...it won't make more sense in time.

[Some things, she can't just solve right away, no matter how much she wants to. She looks entirely hopeless and in over her head the more she talks about it, and by this point she's just hoping that Martha takes mercy on her and changes the subject.]

[Martha's more than ready to change the subject, but there's just one thing that she wants to make clear first. This is going to involve pulling from her own experience, and talking about something so personal is never easy -- especially because she values Clara's opinion. But she also thinks that Clara won't be so quick to judge her.]

It's something you'll have to feel out, but I just want to say... don't let yourself get so hung up on it that you get stuck in some kind of bad situation. You need to focus on living your life, too. [For however much they have a life in a place like Wonderland, anyway.]

It's easy to let those thoughts take control of your life, to the point that it's all you think about. You need to put yourself first. [She offers a sad smile, but it's one of camaraderie. She's been there, is what she's trying to say, even if she's not putting it out there so directly.]

Oh, trust me. Not gonna let it take control of my life. I've got plenty of other things to focus on.

[Like getting out of Wonderland, and all the new lessons she's taken up, and -

Okay, she feels like a stupid teenage girl back at school right now, and she sighs. Martha must think she's completely ridiculous now, she's sure of it.]

Thanks though, Martha. For...whatever this was. I'm not quite sure what it was, besides my being vague.

You're welcome, and... honestly, don't ever hesitate to give me a ring if you need to talk to someone about any of this. I've been through it before.

[That's about all that Martha's willing to say on it, because there's a part of her that's worried that if Clara knew that she'd held a torch for the Doctor for so long, she might judge her for it. It's that irrational kind of thought that she knows she should just snuff out, but that's easier said than done.]

[Clara wants to ask more about Martha's experience, but she knows that might be pressing for a bit too much of information. So instead she gives a curt nod of her head, with a look on her face that says she'll be asking more later.]

Right, 'course I will. If I...need help figuring anything out, you'll be the first I go to. I'll talk to you again soon, I'm sure. Um...thanks again.

[Feeling a bit awkward, she cuts the feed there.]

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