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Now I don't want to sound pretentious when I say this, but no matter how much this camera blows, you can't deny this view. [ booms the voice of some guy who still manages to find a great angle to showcase a particularly beautiful shot of the gardens that most residents are probably already familiar with. yes, residents. he's done his research. he's tech-savvy enough for that and smart enough not to run screaming, blabbing to the first person in his vicinity. he recovers what's left of his sanity and he waits; he learns. then he appears on his own terms. ]

It damn near takes your breath away. [ so does arriving face first in the pool. ] There are only a few things in life that have that kind of power. That kind of sway over you. [ hm? he shakes his head clear of it and steers the view away from the fountain ( far, far away ), cutting the feed and switching to text without ever revealing his face. ]

so, i wanted to pose a question to you, Land of Wonder. what would you describe as a sight for sore eyes, and why? is it something that can be physically found or does it exist strictly in the imagination? and don't worry, i know all about how curiosity killed the cat. i'm more of a dog guy. on that note, if anyone's seen either one of mine, i'd really appreciate whatever information you have. one of them is like a wrecking ball. he's big, hairy, and he leaves a huge mess. he answers to Derek, and no, you never get used to the drool. the other one's kind of small, but he never stops trying to learn the same darn trick. Scott's just so predictable. you almost have to like him and feel sorry for him at the same time.

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[ did that just give her chills? maybe. not that she'd ever admit it. ]

does that mean you consider back home normal?

[ because that's an important distinction to make, considering where his 'back home' is in the timneline of events. ]

your experience being here isn't going to be helped by showing up and acting like a jerk
just stay away from derek and scott
and anyone from beacon hills
okay?

[ you want some ice for that burn matt?

a lot more normal than falling down a rabbit hole. [ he's sure they had junkies. crazy people with hallucinations. but legitimate Wonderland? it's a stretch, even for people like them that deal with werewolves, hunters and giant lizards. ]

sorry, was i supposed to bring flowers? [ really, what did she expect? him to show up and apologize? grovel for approval? act like someone pleasant? he's fine with making new friends; to be honest, he doesn't want much (if anything) to do with anyone but Jackson. ] this place can't be that big, but believe me, i'll try my best to stay away from most of you.

[ it's cute that she thinks she matters. real cute. she did, and she's still beautiful, he's certain of that. but he doesn't know how to think about Allison and not picture her grandfather above him, holding him down in the creek. it's a work in progress. ]

[ she doesn't respond to that first bit, mostly because there's not much she can say. he has a point, and that stubborn, immature part of her doesn't really want to admit that. ]

no, but
actually, nevermind. it doesn't matter.
as long as you stay away from them we'll be okay

[ as long as she can pretend she's making a difference, she'll be okay. allison can avoid him, and can keep everyone else away from him. because for one reason or another, this all still feels like her fault. ]

and if i find out you're doing anything to anyone here, you'll regret it
do you understand?

[ he types can we ever be okay? but quickly deletes it, deciding against asking. why bother? maybe there's a universe out there where he gets to be normal, where he doesn't drown and it doesn't screw him up and then maybe, maybe she gives him a chance. but it's not this one, and she's not that special, anyway. ]

really? you're going to penalize me for talking to people, for looking at them?

no
that's not what I meant
I just want to make sure that what happened back home doesn't happen again
to any of us, for any of us

[ because maybe her initial reaction is anger. is hurt, and a reminder of who she became because of what happened then. with him. there are too many other thoughts that are related that aren't his fault. they aren't. and she knows that.

and maybe what she feels more than anger, is guilt. maybe there's some part of her that thinks maybe, just maybe, she can fix this. help them all. but she's having a much harder time getting past her own issues to do that. ]

I don't want anyone getting hurt
and that includes you

[ there's no point in bullshitting. he has everyone believing he's from the night of Lydia's birthday bash but that doesn't mean they haven't been very clear that they're from a much later point. they know more than he wants. they know everything. at least he has a small window for some of them to think well, he hasn't gone completely off the deep end. ]

you think i'm going to go after someone for any old reason? there's nobody here that needs to be punished. nobody here that's killed me and covered it up. just went right on living their life like nothing happened.

[ attempting to is one thing but he can see that he didn't give any of them much choice. Allison's not the one he has a problem with, jealousy aside. ]

like you care what happens to me. stop kidding yourself.

[ allison is balancing on a dangerous beam, somewhere between hating him and understanding him. matt is the same as her, isn't he? someone trying to figure out where they stand in a world that is not fair, not fair at all. matt had his own reasons, she had her's, and yet.

yet. that feeling in the pit of her stomach says otherwise. ]

I think there are too many innocent people here who can get stuck in your crossfires
the moment you find someone, everyone is at risk
I don't want them, or you, or anyone to get hurt
that's it

honestly? no, I don't really care
but I do think you deserve a chance so I'm going to let you have it

[ you mean like the crossfire your grandfather created? he doesn't shout at her, although every fiber in his being says he has to. he must. she needs to hear it. you think monsters aren't that close to you, Allison? guess again. if that's what she wants to surround herself with, that's her business. to choose less, to choose something else. to walk on by like he's not even a person, just like everyone else, then whatever. ]

are you hiding a member of the swim team around here somewhere? because if not, you're wasting your breath and you're wasting my time. i've said my piece and i think you've made your own point extremely clear. i don't need hand-outs.

Edited 2014-05-30 04:40 (UTC)

[ and it would probably have the exact effect he wants to have, shattering whatever kind of basis she's built up for herself. every time she thinks she's gotten away from it, gotten better, she has someone show up to remind her.

no, the monsters are all around her. are her. but that doesn't mean she can't try and do something about them. about herself. ]

it's not a hand-out
it's human decency
but if I've made my point then we're done

welcome to wonderland, matt.

[ she presses send and closes her device, tossing it to the other side of her bed. she's done with this conversation, even if he decides to continue it. she's not going to respond. ]

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